Word's Fail

Words Fail

I'm tired, and I'm sick. No really, my blood pressure is high, my cholesterol is high, and my blood sugar is high. The trifecta. I was really scared for a while, but my doctor seems to be getting things under control now.  I am going to to stop writing, in a public form at least. The post title comes from the brilliant Pasek and Paul. "Words Fail" from Dear Evan Hansen:


I never meant to make it such a mess
I never thought that it would go this far
So I just stand here sorry
Searching for something to say
Something to say
Words fail, words fail
There's nothing I can say

I think rehashing my anger and resentment of my marriage has been cathartic, but bad for my health.  I have what I wanted anyway.  Time to be gracious and withdraw from the field.  It's not like I have a zillion readers anyway.  Time to journal (I mean masturbate) away from all the prying eyes of the internet.  I couldn't leave without one last song though. So, Goodbye My Gypsy Lovers, Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye. Whoa...And Goodbye to Great Comet.  (I weep quietly.)

[ANATOLE]
Everyone raise a glass! Whoa...
Well, comrades
We’ve had our fun
Lived, laughed and loved
Friends of my youth
When shall we meet again?
I’m going abroad

Goodbye my gypsy lovers
All my revels here are over
Well, goodbye, Matryosha
Kiss me one last time, whoa
Remember me to Steshka
There, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Wish me luck my Gypsy lovers
Now goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

[ALL]
Goodbye my Gypsy lovers
All my revels here are over
Well, goodbye, Matryosha
Kiss me one last time, whoa
Remember me to Steshka
There, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Wish me luck my Gypsy lovers
Now goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

[ANATOLE]
Now drink!

[ALL]
Hurrah!
Smash the glasses on the floor!
(They dance.)

Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey!
Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey!
(They dance more.)

Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey!
Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey!

[PIERRE]
Whoa! Here’s to happiness, freedom, and life!
May your travel be swift as a scythe cuts through the grass!

[ALL]
Whoa...
Whoa...
[PIERRE]
May your sorrows be counted and numbered as many
As drops of wine and vodka that stay in my glass!

[ALL]
Whoa...
Whoa...

[PIERRE]
Vsyevo xhoroshevo
Na pososhok
Poyekhali

Vsyevo xhoroshevo
Na pososhok!
Poyekhali!

[ALL]
Vsyevo xhoroshevo
Na pososhok!
Poyekhali.

Vsyevo xhoroshevo
Na pososhok
Poyekhali
Na pososhok!
Poyekhali!
Come on, let’s go!...